Welcome to my book
I've uploaded the first chapter for you to read online with more chapters to follow at a later date.
The first chapter tells you how I went to my favourite bookshop. By chance, I spotted a book on obsessive-compulsive disorder and discovered I'd had the condition for years. In the following chapters of my book, I discuss the variations I struggled with, such as fear of harm and scrupulosity. Then, through the book, I discuss my recovery with the evidence-based treatment known as exposure-response prevention.
Desire-Intrusive Thoughts tells you why I decided to become a CBT therapist for obsessive-compulsive disorder and now a writer. And the second part goes through the graduated process of recovery for people living with OCD.
Later, I describe how I developed an interest in pure-intrusive thoughts and why people battle with false desire in sexual, religious, and harm obsessions.
In the final chapters, I look more deeply at this phenomenon and how exposure-response prevention treatment can be improved when it seems it doesn't have the desired outcome. I also discuss why deep brain stimulation is available as a treatment option. That is, when traditional therapy fails in the habituation process during exposure therapy.
You can read an interview about my book in my blog. Also, the first chapter of my book is provided below (toggle to full screen on a laptop for better viewing). But if you want to read the book straight away, you can get a hard copy or instant download on Kindle at Amazon today! I do hope you'll like it and give it a review on Amazon. You can also share your review with the ones below (it can be sent through the contact section on the site's homepage).
Enjoy! And thanks so much for reading!
Martin Johannson, Doctor
In her book, Carol Edwards examines a phenomenon well known to many OCD sufferers but still unexplored or even disregarded by the medical and psychological community: The highly disturbing feeling of liking the content of an intrusive thought or wanting to act on it, to the point where engaging with the obsession can have almost addictive properties. For many patients (especially those with harm OCD or sexual obsessions), this experience is the only part of their OCD that they do not manage to distance from very well even with CBT and can be the singular aspect which is keeping them stuck in an endless cycle of rumination and testing where they are trying to prove a feared desire wrong. This then tends to exacerbate the OCD and therefore increase the hyperfocus on the unwanted desirable feeling. The book includes multiple case studies (including Carol's personal story) which help sufferers understand this complicated part of their OCD and make it easier for professionals without OCD to understand the experience their clients suffer from. It also delivers a theory on the neurological background of this phenomenon and practical advice on how to treat these obsessions by cutting compulsions with ERP while avoiding being absorbed into the desirable feeling. My personal conclusion as both an OCD sufferer and medical professional: A great book that fills an important knowledge gap in the treatment of OCD and should be standard literature for every professional who is treating people with intrusive thoughts with a desire component.
I've been very impressed with reading your book and how well you know OCD. And letting people know that you have experienced what they are experiencing is very very important. I was thinking about the transgender obsession and that must be a really difficult one. Wow. OCD is like an abyss and finding your way through it is truly a journey and then there’s maintenance of course. You are so knowledgeable and it’s so easy to read and I mean that in a very complementary way. You make it so that the person suffering does not have to be a doctor to understand it. Thank you! you’re a wonderful writer, Deb
Ben Carney, Musician
What I liked most about "Desire-Intrusive Thoughts" is how the topic of desire has not been dismissed as a feature in pure obsessions. As the author points out, many clinicians keep it simple by saying it's just your OCD. It's true, yes, keep it simple, but it makes sense that since the pleasure side of our brain is partly involved in OCD, that somehow such interference needs addressing in therapy. I agree with the author that if aversion is unwanted then so is desire because each emotion or reaction is part of the disorder. In therapy, I know how hard it is to resist rituals to minimize disgust and reduce anxiety, but I can now see from reading this book how absorption happens more when desire is involved, affecting the habituation process. I agree that people become so immersed in rituals to try and avoid any form of desire related to their obsessional fears. As a sufferer of OCD, the third part of the book cleared up a lot of confusion for me in that sense. OCD is a cruel disorder, and I think the author captures well how a biological explanation can help enhance treatment outcome.
N. W., Driver
I found this book fascinating. The author includes her own experiences of living with OCD to begin with. In the second part of the book, she outlines how therapy for OCD works and uses therapist and client dialogues, which is good because it shows how the structure of therapy works. In the third part of the book, I admire her for taking on quite a task to search for reasons why people seem to like the content of their intrusive thoughts that is actually unwanted. The brain is a strange thing and so reading about obsessions from a desire-aversion perspective was like wow, finally someone is brave enough to test the theory that while it's common knowledge that we do feel arousal despite that it's unwanted, there's more to it. The book cleverly explains that arousal is not just sexual but also "thrilling" when it mingles with harm obsessions and "wickedly luring" in religious obsessions. This book provides insight, showing why exposure-response prevention therapy might not be working and how to make it work. I'd say that the only minor downside about this book is that some of the technical reading on the biology of OCD (in the final chapters) was a little difficult to read, but overall, I recommend this book for anyone (and therapists) living with Pure O, and who especially have fears of liking their thoughts.
Chase Craft, Animal Carer
An imperative study into the most torturous element of one of the more complex psychiatric illnesses.
There have been many important books written about obsessive-compulsive disorder, in which most have centered around the more mainstream symptoms such as excessive hand washing, ridgid routines, and excruciating demands for perfection. While these branches of OCD cause much havoc in the lives of sufferers, there is also another hellish side to the illness that, while never manifesting itself visually, mercilessly torments it's victims with thoughts of disgust, violence, blasphemous and sexually suggestive themes. It brutalizes it's victims with doubts of one's character and sanity, while compounding immense shame to a person, forcing them to conceal it's horrific ideas, thus allowing it to resume it's mental savagery for long periods of time. This choice weapon of OCD is referred to as intrusive thoughts/obsessions, and in recent years, there have been a handful of very informative books to come out centering on this agonizing mental spector.
One such book, Desire-Intrusive Thoughts by Carol Edwards, delves into this very complex psychiatric phenomenon and provides the reader with an in depth look at one of the most commonly misunderstood as well as more crippling forms of the disorder. She examines the intrusive feelings of guilt, desire and uncertainty that permits OCD to hold it's victims in bondage to the fear that it sprouts.
As a sufferer of intrusive thoughts(Pure O) since 1984, I found Carol's book to be astonishing, groundbreaking, encouraging, and just an absolute godsend to those of us who have carried the burden of Pure O throughout our lives. She shines a light on the deceptive feelings and arousal that the thoughts can bring making a person question their being and values. She explains the difference between a real desire to do harm and the illusion that OCD places on one's psyche. It provides the reader with even more understanding behind the mechanics that make OCD threat's seem so real and offers much hope as it presents an even better focus into the trickery that OCD uses to manipulate it's victims into keeping alive it's vicious cycle. This is an absolute must for those who have been held prisoners in their own mind by this brutal brain beast known as OCD!