Updated: Oct 24, 2021
I'm about to do an exposure for harm OCD. It means confronting a fear of harming people with sharp objects. And so, by bringing up harm-intrusive thoughts, I'm scared I'll act on them. My partner doesn't for one minute think I will. Still, I've been thinking about aggressive obsessions and how it feels like a genuine impulse to do the thing you don't want to do. For me, it's like I actually feel a desirous urge to act on the thoughts. Even though I read that OCD thoughts are the opposite of one's true wishes and desires, I have doubts, and right now, as I hold a knife in my hand for the exposure, I'm terrified.